but hey, i guess i’d rather feel stressed and buried under the weight of wanting things instead of being stuck in a constant state of apathy.
also; i’ve made a few friends at work but the one closest to my age is a huge flake and is constantly canceling plans and is incredibly naive and sometimes when she opens her mouth and says things I want to cry out for the sake of humanity.
I just wish I had my degree instead of sitting on a waiting list about a year long (the fact that it’s not definite isn’t helping either…) so that I could support myself and go live wherever I wanted. I’ve been experiencing wanderlust intensely more and more so lately and I just want to get out of Holland. So badly.
So stressed out, I need to go for a run.
Oh, and I really want to run the Color Run in lansing as a fun way to celebrate my birthday but I can’t find anyone who will run it with me.
- Me during the day: I'm so fucking tired oh my God I can't wait to go to bed tonight
- Me during the night: Let's download the top 100 songs from the 90s and listen to them all while writing a novel and watching an entire season of something and maybe rearrange my room